I Flew

nervous stomach clammy hands, before it takes off I'm ready to land

OMG I’m having a stroke! maybe a heart attack or a frog in my throat
I want to yell get me off this thing
but embarrassed myself and my colleagues, nope ya girl too vain

Suck it up girl! close your eyes; say a prayer.  Imagine yourself an eagle soaring way up there.
You can do it ! it’s amazing I feel all this love and concern around me
there’s nothing keeping me from conquering this fear but these hella nerves inside of me

So I say a prayer I close my eyes talk to God to my surprise;  the pain in my arm is listening to me, my heart stopped pounding it's calming my feet
It's telling my body to just be calm, we were ok before this plane took off so there’s no need for alarmed

I put in my headphones I cover my eyes fasten in my seatbelt I’m ready to fly 

I feel the plane moving OMG here we go; sit back, don’t panic, breathe in and out just.. flow
I feel it going forward faster and faster this time, falling back in my seat like a roller coaster I feel my body start to climb

Once I feel we were up in the air,  I open the shades to see what’s out there 

OMG such beauty look at the sky, looking down at the street I can’t believe it I can fly

I’m listening to my audiobook a sad story about this man’s horrible life, but I hear hope and optimism although he lost his family and wife  

This is what I chose to distract me from fear, but not the flight, his story make me want to shed tears

At the same time I’m thinking the same God that allowed him and other Jews to go through such horror created this beauty for me to see
That makes it amazingly confusing, who knew a plane ride could affect me so deeply and spiritually

As I’m looking out the window at all this beauty before me, I wonder if this is the experience of every first time flyer or is it just CT 

I’ve always had admiration for the birds flying and the eagles that glide and soar

Well today I'm that eagle in the beautiful clear blue, what more could I ask for
I’m thankful for this experience and glad it was a positive one,  I can mark something else off my bucket list rode a plane, conquered it, loved it... done