My lost first love..........

I feel a void
An emptiness in my heart
I wake up daily trying to figure out what I did wrong
Why doesn't he loooove me?
Am I ugly? Am I dumb? Am I stupid?
Is it because I remind him of her?
That great love of his that he lost?
Or that evil chick that made a situation-ship, a Relationship
What does that have to do with me?
I feel like there is something here
I feel like you love me or at a minimum....like me?
I try so hard to catch your eye by trying to be the p..word..PERFECT
But to no avail
So I do dumb things; with hope, that you will see my desperation and have pity. 

Can you at least trrrry to love me?
But you don't, you won't
I try to..NOT care
But I do
I'll try to move on...but I can't
I try to give up on loving you
But I won't
Can you feel my pain?
Do you see my lonely tears I cry?
Do you hear the echo in my hollow heart, once filled with you in all your essence
Do you care about my emotional scars?
Do you
Daddy?