Farewell to a special friend

I took for granted you’d always be here 

Whenever I needed you, you were never too far , for me you were always near 

I started to call your phone number for your voice, I wanted to hear. 

But then it dawned on me; your voicemail. I never heard it. 

For anytime I called, on the first or second ring you’d answer as if you knew it was urgent 

It wasn’t 

To hear my need or the venting of this emotional female cancer 

But now suddenly, you’re gone, and I find myself looking for answers 

But I keep coming up short 

There are none 

When life is over, it can’t be undone 

To give me the answers I seek there is only one and you’re gone 

Gone but never forgotten. I know I’m not wrong.  

This pain in my heart isn’t mine alone.

For your kindness, your smile, and those beautiful hazel eyes and the friendship you shown 

Were a gift not just for me 

But for everyone you’ve known

I’ll miss my calls, all of my random or holiday text 

I’m allowing myself to grieve I’m not sure what’s next 

I wish you would’ve shared with me all that you were going through

On some levels, I know me or your best friend Darin would’ve been more than willing to help you

But you never said anything

People say it was just God‘s will, but for me it’s hard to accept

And I know if I offered to swap you out with somebody else this offer you’d reject

It’s who you were

Nasty, hateful, selfish people live long, live good, I can’t make sense out of this thing called life

but good people with good hearts, deal with hardships, struggles, conflicts, downfalls, no way this shit is right

But through your death, I’ve learned many a life lesson 

The biggest one being not taking for granted angels in my life, who are God‘s gifts and my blessings 

I hope with time my pain will be less

And although your friends and family on earth love you, 

God loves you best

Farewell Lester 

I thank you for being my friend