I Could've been more

I could’ve been more 

I often think about the life I live 

The time I waste

The gifts I give 

And sometimes it causes me to weep 

For, I never had the chance to become all that I could be 

What if someone had taken the time to simply ask me what I need to be the person I long to be 

To be the person, I see in my dreams, when I go to sleep 

What if I had a cheerleader riding with me along the way? 

Telling me you can do it; I pray for your success, let today be your day 

But I didn’t 

To have that encouragement as through life, I trotted along

Saying, so what you try it, it failed. How could trying be wrong? 

Learn from it

To have at least one person breathe some life into at least one of my dreams 

Instead of shooting them down so quickly before I awaken it seemed 

A ballerina 

A singer 

A doctor 

A lawyer 

A star 

But people made it seem like these dreams were impossible, like harness in the wind or touching a star 

But the world will never know what it would’ve been like to have been impacted by me and all my creatively 

Because no one cared or believed in me enough to help me launch and invest it seems, no one will ever experience…..ME

Sad world 

But why?

Jealousy 

Envy 

No time 

No dime

Why not? 

Fear I may surpass you? The world will love me, whereas they never did grasp you? 

Suppress my talents 

Kill my joy 

Keep me in a box built for Girls 

Because it’s a whole world out there built for boys 

Says who 

Woman stay in your place 

Man lead and uplift the race 

Woman cook, clean take care of me and my babies 

Step up when the world needs you; equal work for equal pay, bitch you must be crazy. 

Cooking, cleaning grocery shopping, taking care of the home and kids all day 

You need a break? No you don't, that's not work nall you just lazy 

The world will keep moving full speed ahead 

But I’m getting old losing steam losing gas 

Every day thinking about what could’ve been, but it’s too late for my time has passed