A combination of kids

As I sit here trying to learn
Do you know what goes through my head
I'm hopping nobody notices the bite mark from the bugs inside my bed
Do you hear what's in my ears?
mothers screaming, "oh lord not my baby" through their tears
The sound of sirens day and night
What to do fight or flight
Do you see what's in my eyes?  The tears I refuse to shed. 
As my mothers current boyfriend goes upside my head because of some words HE thought I said 
Do you smell? The urine soaked sheets in my sisters room 
as she urinates on herself nightly as not to be appealing to moms NEW goon
The smell of food burning as my mom is in the room 
Convincing dad a job will come soon, trying to prevent her pending doom. another but kicking
I didn't sleep at all last night, 
people outside my window or maybe that couple downstairs are about to fight 
OMG not again tonight
Then I get up after not having much sleep,
have to get up, get to school but in this house NO food to eat
Now I have to go to school trying to learn, sitting in class
thoughts in my head, I'm hungry, the kid behind me wants to whoop my ass
Now this teacher is about to blow me wondering why I can't sit in my seat 
when every sound I hear could once again be the police
Coming to my house to take my dad away 
Or putting up the red tape for the second time today
As I'm sitting in my class trying to learn
To run away, from this madness called life, this urge I yearn
As I try sitting quietly in my seat, attempting another assignment I won't complete
Too much stuff going on in my head, tired of life wish I were dead 
Or maybe wake up in someone else's life, someone else head, someone else's family, someone else's bed
But this is a dream, my options not ideal
My life not MY life a I hate this whole ordeal
Maybe I'll feel better after lunch when I finally get a meal 
:-(