I WOKE UP

I woke up one day feeling alright with the world, although the situation in my city seems to be getting worse
I woke up feeling that no matter what the world throws my way I would deflect it with my force field of calm, understanding and patience
I woke up understanding that whatever the Lord has for me I will receive If I pray for it and don't get it, it was not mine to have
I woke up understanding that this is the feeling that I want to dictate my life
I woke up understanding that everyday I WON'T feel this way
I woke up understanding work is not always an emotionally or physically safe place
I woke up understanding that bad things will happen as my grandfather would say "if you live long enough" or as my dad would say "keep on living'
I woke up knowing people at some point would hurt my feelings putting a strong hold on my heart holding me tightly in their grasp of deception then ever so quickly without warning....releasing me free falling into the abyss of uncertainty
I woke up understanding that I am a very sensitive person, easily offended, easily hurt
But I also woke up with the understanding that I can survive that hurt
I woke up realizing I am a creative thinker with many gifts and talents but some were given to me because God was just flexin
I woke up realizing that some of my gifts were to be used in a career not of my choosing, to help a group of people who I need as much as they need me
I woke up loving the skin I'm in every nook and cranny, every dimple every bump and roll, every perfect imperfection
I woke up realizing the things society says are important are NOT important to me
I woke up knowing I have a value system and as long as stay true to who I am my universe is balanced
I woke up understanding that I loved Gods creation (that is I) and that this creation uniquely designed for his purpose and his purpose alone
I woke up feeling HAPPY
I WOKE UP