Sunday, February 16, 2014

Disillusioned

Something new copyright @ 2/16/2014

Disillusioned

Ok so, the nursery rhythms I heard as a child got me, disillusioned
Believing that in my time of peril, a prince would show up, riding up on his white horse and save me from a life of destruction and maltreatment. Wisping me away to a magical place to be taken care of, provided for and we would live together...happily ever after.    

Happily ever after

The writers left some parts out
They forgot to tell me about the struggles
They forgot to mention I would be expected to give up parts of me to be a “we
Disillusioned
They neglected to mention I would have to put in work and compromise
Disillusioned
They neglected to inform me that I could not bring BAGAGE from my previous relationship or relationships with me into my new one
Disillusioned
They got side tracked on mentioning, I couldn't change or train another individual into what I need them to be or feel they should be
Disillusioned
I wasn't informed that I actually have a role, a part, a position to play in this thing called a relationship
Disillusioned
Not only do I have a position, it's a position of submission
Hmm, yep sound like I have been, Disillusioned
I wasn't informed that this is not a powerless position, but a powerful position where there is a leader who fights the battle while my gifts are held in reserves until the leader becomes worn and weary. It is then I am called into play.
Disillusioned
My position is not one of powerlessness but a position of power
There's no I in team so it's not about I; but there is an M and an E meaning ME and You. So don’t invite others and their opinions into this thing of ours.
No Cinderella Story; no evil stepmother, some mice, nice carriage, beautiful dress a ball… a prince coming for me?
No Snow White; no evil witches and multiple men saving me. No kiss that awakens me from???
No sleeping beauty; sleeping through life waiting to be awakened by one outside of me. A fair maiden lying in wait to be taken care of

No; not really, my princesses are more like:
Vashti. representing self-respect, not be made a spectacle of. Not allowing others to disrespect me.
Ester. Prepared to do what needs to be done for the salvation of others, self-sacrificing (to an extent)
Ruth. Learned from elders, listened, followed…Learned
More realistic heroines, no more fairy tales

A life of enlightenment! No longer Disillusioned


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